Things to do!

Things to accomplish!

Learn Japanese Language!

Learn to play piano!

Take up Vocal lessons again!

Learn a chim word a day!

The sword broken, now reforged.

I used to have more purpose in what I was doing.

I used to be able to tell what's right and wrong.

I used to still be able to enjoy what life has to offer while doing well for school.

I used to spent so much more time with my family.

I used to not think so much.

Maybe times have changed, maybe I can't adapt, maybe it's just the people around me.

It was easy to blame it all on those excuses. But no. No, it was just me. I have changed.

I didn't want to accept change. I didn't want to get out of my comfort zone. I didn't want to accept new people coming into my life.

I deluded myself with school, thinking going there would result in a better studying environment.

There was a time, I did well in studies, I could enjoy being around with friends, I always expressed myself the way I want to.

There was a time, I could survive loneliness.

Now, my studies are behind, I don't laugh a lot with new friends, I hold back my feelings.

I'm afraid of being alone.

Sad songs only get sadder when I listen to them, cheerful songs sound like noise.

Everything around me is falling apart, the walls crumbling, trapped in my own prison. How I long to be able to be myself again.

Was it the environment that changed me? the people?

No, it was just a choice I made without knowing. That choice now is being evaluated. A journey from the MRT to the bus stop.

I was thinking.. Why? Why can't i be happy? Why can't I be the same? Why am I pushing everything away? Why was I...

Putting on an act?

This act Ends Now

No more will I allow myself to procrastinate

No more will I smile when I don't want to, do something for the sake of doing it.

No more will do something just because others are doing the same.

This time, you will see me.

As myself.

I want to be able to sing at the top of my voice.

I want to make sad songs meaningful, happy songs to boost my spirit.

I want to enjoy every moment now.

I want to be able to know what the lecture is about and tell those around me about it.

I want to do the things I like without having to worry about anything else.

I want to let things go.

I want to strive forward.

I want to learn new things.

I want to laugh with my friends.

I want to have soemthing to remember when I leave school.

I want to have something/one to look forward to when going to a place.

I want my days to past and not regretting not doing something.

I want to be the person to look for help when problems happen.

I want to be the super ai zai person who people used to know.

I want to outshine, outstand, outdo people.

I want to have drive in what whatever I do.

I want to chase a dream again.

These are not wishes nor dreams, I know they are in me but were lost in time. T

here was once I was all those. Why should it be ANY different now?!

These are not wishes nor dreams, I know they are in me but were lost in time.

The fire burns as I think of this.

A fire doused months ago will reignite.

The sword that was broken will be reforged.

The flame has been rekindled.

Now you will see me as myself.

I have resumed control.

我是我自己的神，在我活的地方。

I will no longer look for the whole staircase before taking the first step.

就算失望，不能绝望

I will live again.

Quotes!

Since i'm free~~~~ At home with a nice cup of coffee, in the morning too! Gotta love mornings.

I won't say don't cry,
I'll say, just cry.
Even if the tears takes a week to dry, at least by then you can move on.

It is always the darkest when are you nearest to the lighthouse.

Live as if you were to die tomorrow, dream as if you were to live forever.

Dwelling on the past clouds your future, looking too much into the future will only dilute your past.

The past is your pillar of strength and the hammer that can break it all down.

Happy times in the past breaks you down, the sad times are the ones that will push you forward.

I will not tell you to ditch your past behind because it will come back to haunt you.
I'll tell you to keep your past, keep it somewhere safe.
Then when it emerges, smile :) and tell yourself... it was beautiful while it lasted.

These quites were not taken from the interenet! This comes from my R&D team so please cite my name if you ever need to use them.