On the idea of good mood

I am sitting at my computer table with the new lights in my room and listening to piano pieces.

Well, you've guessed it! Final Fantasy piano pieces people. This time round I didn't start with the piece "Ahead on our way" but instead I went straight to "Melodies of Life". And yes indeed, today I am going to blog about ya know, the "Melodies of Life". A friend of mine once said, "You know what's missing in our lives? A background music." That got me thinking... I was thinking, oh yeah! How nice would things be if there were background music attached to your life. But then again it would be weird cos you will not get a moment's peace. Even if you did, it would natually mean suspense and something frightening is coming along your way.

But anyhow~ I wanted to blog about something that happened to me today that contributes (for a lack of a better word) to my journey of loving myself. So I went to my night class and as I sat down, my friend was telling me, "Wah good mood ah." I was kind of surprised to hear that! I was confused at the same time ass well when she told me that. I thought to myself, "Hey I'm not smiling like an idiot am I?" It was then I realised that I was actually singing while I walked into the class room and only stopped when she commented that I was in a good mood.

My thought process was as follows.

I was singing cos, I dunno I just liked it and enjoy it very much.
So does that mean that singing = good mood?
I realised, no.
It was more like me doing what I wanted to do!
Me doing things that I wanted and not what the society dictated.
I was just singing! (Not VERY loudly but enough for my friend to hear it.)

So I felt quite good for a while, because that statement that my friend made, was to me, like a "Level up in loving myself". It was like a feedback. The feedback told me, "Hey you are doing a good job! You are starting to do what you wanna!" So after that episode, I naturally got even happier and continued this journey of loving myself more.

There are however, the hours that I felt like I was reverting back to the old me. The one that left me feeling that I was wasting a lot of time on things that didn't matter. At that point of time, I went online to read the articles on loving myself again and tried to steer myself back on track. I then stumbled upon a suggestion of wearing a wrist band to remind myself of the positive thoughts. This is how it works. When ever I start having negative thoughts and reverting back tot he old me, I would shift the wrist band to my left hand. This is to remind me that I have to start shifting my thoughts back. And when things are on track once more I would switch the wrist band to the right hand where it tells me that I am doing a good job and should keep things that way. I tried it out and hey waddaya know, so far, so good!

I shall continue to go on this path and to make it part of my life as sub consicously as I can.

And oh! I realised too that when I am doing the things I want to do, I end up with more time on my hands! I no longer feel that omg! I just wasted so much time on _____! Now I feel in control and I feel great about it. Now, I feel like I have all the time in the world to do whatever I enjoy doing. Great stuff! and Good job me. hahahahahah

Alright, as much as I love to bathe myself in this new light(loving myself and the physical light in my room) I must get to sleep. But I doubt I can, at least not for the next few minutes as I am TOO FREAKING excited about Dominion!!!